I didn't loose today...

 I didn't loose today. 

I lost when I first looked. 

Right, before the second look. 

The desires grew large unattended. 

So large they started to swallow the room. 

Till parts where obstructed. 

And opportunities missed. 

And when the fires inevitably came. 

They burnt strong on the detritus. 

And smoldered for years. 

Till now in the ruins. 

As the smoke clears. 

I see all that that must be attended to. 

And so diligently. 

I prune the desires.

Search for the truth. 

And cultivate that which ought to be. 

Such that one day. 

Thought can just be.